I swear its all in your head

As I trudge through the perpetual darkness that is my psyche, I feel my means of transport growing ever weary yet never ceasing their now almost 2nd nature motion. I walk not in vain, but in confusion, trying harder now to tame my focus but it keeps escaping me. I can see what I'm walking towards, a beautiful and alluring light, as we know seeing isn't the same as understanding and that was my goal. With many questions unanswered forward on I go with uncertainty, how did i get here? Where exactly is here? But most importantly does anyone really know?